Dear diary,
I think I did a really big mistake in my life. Hanging out with Lizza, my ex-best friend, was a waste of time. She just used me for almost 3 years now and I*m really mad about it. I mean, I did so many things for her, no thanks no nothing, and now that we fought, she treats me like I don*t even deserve to live or breath the same air as her.
Basically, I did her homework, her chores, even helped her out with her problems. For exemple, I remember that in nineth grade she asked me to lend her my homework because she didn*t do it. Why you may ask? Because she had a romantic date with Nate and she hadn*t had time to thnk of anything else. So what did I do? I lended her MY homework and I got a bad grade for the fact that I ’’didn*t do it”. So she got a passing grade on my work and I failed the class.
This other time, we were in the middle of a test and she hadn’t studied so she kept asking me for the answers. But not silently. She was talking normaly and of course the teacher came to us and took our test and both got a really bad grade. But what is worse is that she blamed me for this hole thing and I ended up being suspended for a week. I don’t even want to explain how much my mother screamed at me that week. I almost ended up sleeping at my grandparents house. Not only that, but she never said sorry for that. She just ignored me until she needed somthing. I had’t realise it back then but now I that I fought with her I feel like for the past 3 years I have been just a dog obeying her.
I can’t believe I even stood up for her when people were saying mean things about her. I regret so this so much now! All those people who tryed to make me open my eyes were right. I should apologize to every single one of them! For exemple, Nex, a boy from my class that sits in the last desk, once came to me and said that I should really try making better friends. I asked him why would he say that and he just stared at me then left. The next day, I talked to him about this and he just pointed at Lizza saying that I should choose my friends better. All I remember is that I started screaming at him for no reason. Now I feel guilty. The first thing I’m gonna do tomorrow is to apologize to him but for now, I will go to sleep.
P.S: How can I be so foolish?
